The holidays

Well I know I havent written in awhile, but the holidays got pretty busy for me.
First my rainbow and I went to san diego ca for a week to visit some family and friends and then we got back and I returned to work to get ready for christmas, which by the way was a really long long day.
And now I am preparing for the new year, which I cant believe another has past and even though my rainbow is here and pain of losing my son has not gotten any easier just feels like its gotten worse since my rainbow has been here. I love my rainbow more then anything, but I miss my son sooo much and I want him back so much
ITS NOT FAIR!!!